Argh I'm SICK!!! Having a cold and just feeling fatigue, that I slept a lot today. Haha. My dear KJ was quite cute... "Nurse get sick too?" Lol. YES, in fact the probability is probably higher. =P

Btw, it's our exam break now. So proud of myself cos I woke up at 8 plus this morning to study!!! Lol... But HAD to lie down on my bed after every topic due to the sickness. But wasted the whole afternoon cos I was drowsy and all.....

Am now studying about the NERVOUS SYSTEM which consists mainly of the BRAIN and the SPINAL CORD... My most dreaded topic... Cos it's quite foreign to me and it contains a lot of alien terms. Neuroglia, astrocytes, oligodendrocytes..............?!!?!?!?!?!

='( !!!

Obliviously, I blurted out a question to a friend, "So what does the brain do??" Lol It sounds ridiculous right. BUT DO YOU KNOW? Haha. Gosh... Sometimes the more I study the more confused I get. Or rather, the more I study the more I find out a lot of things which I thought I know but I don't.

Test's on this Saturday and it constitutes 70% of the overall mark for that subject. I MUST do well if not it'd be a big letdown. :(

Ok I'm off...

Sigh, I broke down in school just now. And in a bus on the way home, like your typical tv serial scene. Probably overwhelmed. Disappointed with myself. 

I've seen other classmates breaking down too. And one thing about my course is, all our tutors are nurses. They are sharp to spot any anomalous behaviour and will deal with it within a short period. They are also very motherly which make us feel very 'protected' in school haha. 

Sometimes I wish I can be like other 'normal' schoolmates, where the only commitment they have is just going to school and doing well for exams. How free! How boring.

It's often heard, "there is only so much a person can do." Maybe it's true, maybe it's just an excuse not to stretch ourselves.

My tutor once said "It's either you be a good nurse, or you don't be a nurse at all." It struck me. It's true, once we set our heart to do something, it's either we do it well or we don't do it at all. At times, I wonder if I'm up to it.

Many times I ask myself, "What am I really good in?" Sometimes, I struggle to find an answer.

Am I pushing myself too hard? It just gets frustrating when you KNOW you have the potential to do something better but you're not reaching it.

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On a lighter note, have you ever watched how an AMPUTATION is done??????

I was studying with a friend in the library last night and he showed me a video on youtube, featuring an above-knee amputation............................ And insisted I should watch it since I hope to work in the operating theatre next time....... Hahaha..

It was... Erm... Interesting? I can't think of an appropriate word to describe. It was pretty much like a butchering scene, but everything was done neatly and swiftly.

Hmmm... Come to think of it, there's nothing quite disgusting or cruel/inhumane about it. They are simply procedures that HAVE to be carried out for the better of the patient. And someone, somehow, has to do it.

I hope the public has more knowledge about what goes on in a hospital before making judgment...

P.S: Erm... Maybe this is not a 'lighter note'... Lol...

It's such a relief to have handed in my essay! Such such! (^;^)v

But I know it's a short-lived one, cos end of semester exams start NEXT WEEK. 5 exams over 3 weeks...

Anyway, hope to catch MADAGASCAR 2 this week! For some reasons, I like cartoonish shows like Finding Nemo, Ratatouille... I find them v.cute and fascinating to watch haha.

And oh, yesterday it hit me, upon seeing shops displaying deco, that CHRISTMAS is coming!!!!!! It's a magical time when you can literally feel the love in the air hahaha... =) What makes it more special this year is knowing that when Christmas arrives, I'd have already gone through my EXAMS, ASIA CONF and ATTACHMENT. Yay celebrate!

Once again, I'm awake at a crazy hour, trying to finish up my essay (to be submitted at 1pm later)! I have come to realise that writing such a long essay is like fixing a jigsaw puzzle, trying to piece every part  together to form a nice (hopefully =P) and complete piece.

Strangely while doing, there is a joy in my heart. LOL.. Quite enjoy it. But it's so hard to even add 100 words hahaha. But I hope I can do up a good essay.

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I'm so happy today hahaha. Reason being my dad is going to buy me a PRINTER and HANDPHONE (thank God I didn't buy earlier =X)! And also gave me SOME $$$. =)!!!!!

Wow MIRACLE!!! Wanna walk under open heaven! Believing for a LAPTOP next......... =)

Thanks Yang for your 3 logs of SINFUL treats too. Flown specially from Down Under hahaha. I haven't eaten them and I don't dare to!!!!!! LOL... I'd probably take 1 month to finish them. =P

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I'm seriously mentally fatigue now... *sing* I'M A SURVIVOR, I'M NOT GONNA GIVE UP! Haha whatever right?

1000 words to go...... At least I have a friend and iTunes to accompany me haha.

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Ok it's nap time.

(-_-)zzZ

 

The Secret Garden - Winter Light

 

Hearts call, hearts fall,
Swallowed in the rain.
Who knows, life grows,
hollow and so vain.

Wandering in the winter light
the wicked and the sane,
bear witness to salvation
and life starts over again.

Now the clear sky is all around you
Ahh ahh
Love's shadow will surround you
all through the night.

Stars glowing in the twilight
Tell me true
Hope whispers and I will follow
Till you love me too

Chanced upon this and I think it's a magical song cos it can transport one into another world in an instant. If you've read the book "The Secret Garden", it's the perfect song for the scene when they entered the garden. Hehe.

Enjoy~

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I feel sick, or is it just a psychological effect? I love challenges, but I think I got more than I asked for.

:) ?

Wow I'm still up despite a LONG day.

Had a project presentation earlier, glad that I didn't have STAGE FRIGHT. I wasn't nervous at all and my hands were warm. Miracle! Haha. Cos say 1 or 2 years ago, I'd just freak out la.

Talked to 6 people on the phone tonight (which explains why I'm still up) and that is also a MiRaCLe considering I'm not the phone type. Slowly beginning to like it though... :)

Yet another LONG day tmr, but I am feeling good now hehe.

(^;^)v

Kailin reminded me that "those who waters will be watered himself" Wow, thanks!!! =)

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Phyzzzio test result is OUT. Kinda disappointed with it cos I didn't do well, and I wanna do well.

Anatomy test was OVER. Kinda disappointed with it cos I know I couldn't do as well as previous.

My gradessss.....

I hope I can write a good essay on TERRI SCHIAVO. Cos I like writing  GPish stuff and I wanna redeem myself. :(

Believing is seeing!!!

Oh oh... I'm in the school library now. Gonna study till late again... TEST's ON THURSDAY!!! Really wanna do well for it. Happy with my level of motivation to study, as compared to last week which was the most unfruitful one since school started. I shall not give in to my flesh so often!!!

Tmr's a CRAZY crazy day. Totally. In fact the next 2 months are CRAZY. God, please give me new strength every day!!! More than just strength, the wisdom to do things right...

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"My God reigns... His love will never fail me... My God reigns... He's ruling over all..."

This song has been stuck in my head since Sunday and it occasionally brings tears to my eyes when I sing it silently wherever I travel. So touched by God~ It's a reminder to me that God is in control over every situation and that all things will work together for the good of those who love Him.

AMEN!!!

Ohhh... I'm so happy in my heart even in the midst of crazy days. :)!

Have you heard of one of the latest news regarding AMD? It stands for Advance Medical Directive. It's a form which a person signs in advance to disallow any form of artificial methods to sustain life should the person becomes terminally ill (no more cure!) and can't make rational decisions anymore. 

Do you remember Terri Schiavo? The woman who had a sudden stroke and  cardiac arrest out of the blue, which led her to being dependent on machines for her survival. She was diagnosed as being 'brain dead' by 2 doctors. Her being on machines lasted for 15 years. The problem was...

For 5 years, her husband and her parents had a huge conflict of interests. Her husband wanted the tubes removed to end her suffering but her parents insisted that she was a devout Catholic who wouldn't agree on Euthanasia.

This situation was brought to court. Now, on top of the ethical issues, they had the legal issues to deal with.

Who was right? If Terri could talk, what would she want? Who then should be the final decision maker?

THIS CASE MADE ME HAVE TO WRITE A 3000-WORD ESSAY WHICH I HAVE TO SUBMIT IN 2 WEEKS' TIME. I so wish Terri had signed the AMD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So now, you can see that the AMD is a very powerful form. :)

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My GOD reigns!
His love will NEVER fail me
My GOD reigns!
He's ruling over ALL

In ALL my life
In EVERY situation
I KNOW!
My GOD is greater!!!
My GOD is over ALL...

AMEN!!!

Bringing a little more life into the lyrics hehehe... :)

Though it can be tiring juggling school, music (orchestra, quartet, piano) and church, I'm really happy doing what I'm doing. The next 2 months will be very trying for me as I'll be doing many new things which I haven't done before in my SHORT 21 2/3 years. =P

I feel the resistance, sometimes it weighs me down. I think it's a good sign? Meaning a breakthrough is nearing. That is, if I persevere.(Analogically speaking, I'm in the LABOUR phase now. =P)

*Sigh...* I wish I know what to do/say when situations are presented to me. But sometimes I don't... :( I just wanna give God my best... But I guess  my best isn't enough sometimes... :(

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I wanna watch a MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

Last night was a lovely night. :) Cos it was raining heavily and I was safe and snug at home! and was alone playing piano. :) Perfect!!!

I love rainy days cos it kinda slow things down and it's therapeutic just watching the rain fall. :)

I love rollerblading in the rain too, carelessly getting drenched!!!!! And laughing while rolling away wahaha. I know only Cai would do that with me. :) And she might even just stop and laugh at me if I fall down wahaha... =X

But I still don't understand why the rain is dirty? As what most people would think... Unless you're talking about acidic rain, which obviously is harmful. But generally "Singapore's" rain is ok? So what makes the rain dirty?

Haha... Maybe it sounds stupid, but I am just curious.

 

Hey guys,

Please pray for me. Kinda choked up with lots of commitment...

1) Pray for strength, cos I'm mentally tired recently
2) For God to expand my capacity that I will not crumble easily under pressure

Thanks... I wanna cry now.................

:'(

Laid down my head to sleep last night while listening to songs from Mamma Mia. I know they're not the most appropriate songs to listen to prior sleeping, but oh well... :)

Stretched my hand over my head to switch it off once I entered into a semi-conscious state. Ahhh... Now I was ready to sleep. My head was saturated with thoughts and plans for the next few days.

The moment I fell asleep, my body was jolted awake, quite violently such that my bed gave a creak. I was scared for a moment. I pulled my comforter up to my nose and fell asleep thereafter as if my body couldn't care less.

And the next thing I know...

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Guess what? ;)

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Anyway, today was just a BAD day. I had a strong urge to be alone. When that happens, I know something's coming up...

:(

It was quite strange too. After piano lesson, I had a 40-MINUTE talk with my teacher. 40!!!!! I was already wanting to leave cos I had to rush to church. But she just stood at the door, with her hand on the gate but not closing it.

I sensed that she had something more to say/ask so  I didn't rush off... True enough, one sentence led to another and we talked much from piano to relationships and everything in between. :)

Cool.

 

But still, I had a bad day.

REALLY mad at myself today for all my carelessness. Did 3 careless things in 1 day!  :( Blame it on myself and the many things YET to be done which are constantly screaming for my attention. :(

Sigh... Seriously.........................

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Happy that I could go for chc orchestra today! Really missed playing with them~~~ Don't know why there was this joy in my heart when I saw some of them. =)! 

Glad that the song for our upcoming performance is slowly taking form. Phew... :)

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I'm very touched and encouraged by my connect group when I clearly see how God has slowly transformed some of their lives. It's really amazing.

It was very heartwarming to receive a call from a young member sounding so excited to share about how God has healed him...

And another new member called to tell me that his friend is joining us this Friday for THE EDGE. It's something quite "big" as he always chose to be alone and didn't like to talk much. Thank God that somehow we are able to connect.

("Member" sounds so distant, wrote that for simplicity. They are in fact special people.)

It shows that whatever effort we sow into God's kingdom, it is NEVER wasted. It's all these little things that motivate me to keep running the race.

:)

http://www.vpa.nie.edu.sg/music/kelly/index.htm

When I saw the last sentence of the 6th paragraph, my heart leapt and stopped for a split second. I didn't realise the significance of playing for Asia Conference... Now I know... But honestly, it hasn't sunk into my heart. Maybe cos I haven't been attending rehearsals regularly... :(

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Suddenly my to-do list seems to be flooded with so many tasks... A flood comes overnight and mass destruction is caused by lack of preparation. So the next thing to do is to PLAN and have a good time management...

And the next best thing to do is to actually DO those stuff.

Talking to myself. :)

I can feel the stretch, it's causing friction.

Woke up exceptionally early today on a Saturday morning hehe. Had a dreamy night so didn't have a good rest.

Anyway................

Anatomy test result is OUT! Very happy with it cos it's way beyond my expectation. Thank GOD for that. :)

PhyZzzzzzio test was quite tough so I'm not looking forward to seeing the result. :(

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Good news!!! (for myself)

I bought MAMMA MIA SOUNDTRACK CD. :)

Saw it at school's bazaar and I got all excited (as usual la), I told the auntie to reserve for me (cos it was the LAST one) while I took a shuttle bus to draw $$$ and rushed back! Lol...

NICE! :)

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As for NUSSO, I volunteered to help out in the busking event happening soon. Will be contacting people here and there and can get to learn the "behind the scenes" of organising the gigs and all... Wow. Excited!

Will be involved in a quartet performance too, next week is our first practise... Hopefully I can manage the pieces... ARGH BUT I STILL CAN'T FIND MY APPLICATION FORM!!!!!!!!!

I am SURE I put it in my file!!!!!!! But now it's GONE! :(

Hmmm... Received an email from a Wind quartet... They are looking for cellists to play the bassoon part cos they can't find bassoonists...

Don't know if I should try... Lest I spoil the whole quartet. =X

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Woo... CG meeting was great! WOW... The best ever so far for W472 hehehe.

It's about going back again and again to our FIRST love with God... To simply enjoying His presence and asking NOTHING in return...

:)

Ohh I'm feeling jumpy in my heart!

(^;^)v

I am QUITE mad at myself. I think I have some form of dementia...

Sunday - Forgot to bring HP out
Monday - Forgot to bring wallet + HP went FLAT...
Today - Forgot to bring HP + lost a form...

Argh.............

Think my mind's in a disarray...

PHYSIO test is TMR... Stayed back in school to study just now... Didn't have my HP so I lost track of time, only to discover I studied for 3 hours.

Wow COol.... School is so nice to study at night. =) So tempted to just stay overnight in school to save the hassle of travelling...

And the first thing I wanna do on the way home was to watch MAMMA MIA... :(

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I wanna get a handphone, a printer and...

a tattoo. :)

Guess what???

I just watched MAMMA MIA AGAIN!!!! The show just gets better and gosh I laughed at the same thing again!!! Haha. This time I watched it with a friend and it was a treat hehe.

AND I'D LIKE TO WATCH IT AGAIN!!!!!!!

The entire show just made me very very happy watching it hahaha. Audience today was fantastic, some of us sang together with the songs and we laughed spontaneous together. Lol... 

Everyone should watch it!

+ I really like the Starhub advertisement cos the main actor (the guy who was woken up by the white dog in the 1st scene) is near perfect looking and I like his style.

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I was very encouraged today when a friend (you know who) told me that he felt better today after cg meeting. It may be just a small statement but to me it meant a lot.

I was just praying for him last night about some stuff cos he's been feeling heavy in the spirit for some time... So to hear that from him the very next day, really touched my heart.

It meant that God was in my room when I prayed in the middle of last night.

It meant that God heard every word that I spoke and He cares so much as to answer my prayer for somebody else.

It meant that God also heard my prayers for my family members and 2 others...

Actually, something funny happened while I prayed about a particular situation. I told God that I didn't know why things happened this way and He brought back a memory probably 2 months + ago when I prayed for God to INTERVENE in that situation.

So YES... He INTERVENED!!! Now I know why things happened 'this' way. I found it funny and I actually laughed a bit.. It was like "God.........~~~ Was that how you INTERVENED????" Hahaha.

Oh well, His ways are ALWAYS HIGHER than ours. And yes, I'm assured that all things will work out for the good of those who love Him.

 

Kor's finally (officially) married yesterday!!! Why I said "official" is cos I have seen them as husband and wife long ago hehe. So he told me to at least act excited that they are married hahahaha...

It was a really looooong day... But quite an experience. ;)

Stayed over at Shirley's house the day before... Feeling cranky at 1am~ Manifesting my love for colours wahaha...

Wahaha, safely inside while the siong dis were trapped outside...

 

@ The Legends @ Fort Canning Park with the man of the day

Jeff's family from Hong Kong

Jeff + Shirley = Mr and Mrs Mak!

 

Taking a break in the bride's room after everything... Phew~

 

Tired but still wanna zi lian! (+ thinking of Anatomy test the next day...)

Post wedding celebration @ Manhatten Fish Market

Thank God that everything went smoothly! Glad that everyone enjoyed themselves =)

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Ponned 2 lectures today cos I was too tired. So I just went for Anat test... It was easier than I thought but still made a few mistakes... Sigh...

Physiology test next week...

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Felt quite bad tonight for making my dad angry cos of what I said... So I smsed him...

Me: Sorry for what I said. =(

Him: It's ok?

I don't know why he put a "?" but I guess it's ok. :)

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I really wanna thank God for teaching me so much these few weeks, for opening my eyes to my own mistakes and wrongdoings.

It's very important to get time off for self-reflection and it's good to know that we are not always right. Well, I guess everyone knows that but few can accept that.

Successfully woke up this morning after much struggle, and am now in the school library TRYING to study. I think the recess week has totally diminished my stamina to go school!!!

Anatomy test is on this Thursday, feeling quite stressed out cos I don't know how much I know and I am quite sick of studying already. Predict that I won't study the next few days cos of the wedding. Hmmm...

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Indeed, there are many things which I don't understand and probably can't to. People's first assumption to that statement would most likely be BAD things that happened to me which I don't understand why.

However, in fact, there are many GOOD things which happened to me which I don't understand why too. Good things which I know I don't deserve. But whoever will question that? We just take it for granted that those things dropped from heaven and landed in our lives. No one will question further. We gave God our 1 sentence of thanks and we happily received.

(My vocabulary has gone way down to simply "good","bad" and "things"... It's quite a tragedy, pardon that.)

So why is it that people get "alarmed" when bad things happen in their lives? Can I say it's just as normal as having good things happening? Though it's near impossible to "happily receive" them, we can still thank God for all things at all time.

Circumstances may/will change, but God is the same yesterday, today and forever. AMEN.

We are assured and know that [[j]God being a PARTNER in their labor] all things work together and are [fitting into a plan] for good to and for those who love God and are called according to [His] design and purpose.

Romans 8:28 (Amplified Bible)

Since it's the holiday, or rather recess week, it's good to take a moment to sort out my life. Gonna be long, just a sketch of my life. More for myself to read though haha.

PIANO

Since I was young I badly wanted to learn how to play a piano... But I only started learning when I was 13. Sigh. I didn't have a piano then, so my teacher gave me a long paper keyboard so I practised on that and imagined it was a real piano... And yes like you and me, we all started off with "Mary Had a Little Lamb" and "Happy Birthday".

My mum was the one who got me started, she's always supportive of me learning piano... She was the one who bought me my current 2nd hand piano at $5k+. It was a big risk considering I may discontinue learning after a while. But I didn't cos I really love the piano.

A few years back, my dad told me he actually named me after a pianist in church. I was very surprised. I hope I can serve God in this area... But currently no plan as in how to.

Plan to take my Grade 6 theory and practical next year. Skip Grade 7 practical and jump to Grade 8 the following year... If $$$ allows, I'll take Diploma.

CELLO

When I was 15, there was an open door for me to play the cello in my school's Chinese Orchestra. They were looking for just ONE more person. Word spread to me and I joined since the thought of learning an instrument for FREE was very tempting.

Involved in SYF and stuff but couldn't play well cos they didn't grill on the basics.

Used to have casual thoughts of me playing in an "ang moh" orchestra, just a day-dream at that time cos the vision was too far-fetched.

When our church formed an orchestra and performed @ Expo for the 1st time, I was thrilled. I couldn't keep my eyes off the cellists cos I wanted to be playing with them. Never did I know that some of them were actually Elgin and Lisa.

Got Steph to get me a Cello teacher since she was in NAFA. Bought a $1.3k cello and paid my monthly fee out of my own pocket. It was a big sacrifice considering I was/am not that rich. He taught me from SCRATCH and I'm very thankful for his patience with me. :)

Emailed Tat Haur that I wanted to join the orchestra and he invited me to join them. Very thankful for this opportunity since I couldn't even play decently. Always "kena-ed" from Eric and there was a period where I rejected my cello totally, didn't even wanna see it.

That was the beginning.

When I got into NUS, I so wanted to join NUSSO. To my utmost surprise, I passed the audition and got in. But I'm not sure if I'm up to it. :(

Yes now I've fulfilled my dream of playing in an "ang moh" orchestra. Truly if you can see it, you can have it. No matter how silly you feel at first for even imagining it.

Upcoming events:
- Service performance on 3rd wk of Oct
- Nov Asia Conference
- NUS Quartet busking during Xmas period

 NUS-NURSING

Whenever I passed by the highway next to NUS, I always wish I could study there one day. What attracted me were the running tracks and volleyball courts. I'm really happy to be studying there now.

In my 2004 July/August entry, I wrote that I wanted to be either a nurse or a counselor in future. In fact now I can be both. Haha. Thought of becoming a doctor too because the thought of working in an operating theatre is quite cool. But of cos my results were nowhere near fantastic. I still have a chance to work in an OT though. Hehe.

Most importantly, I want to spread the love of God to those who need it most and to be a bearer of God's light in people's darkest moments.

CHURCH

When I was 14, beloved CAI kept "pestering" me to go church with her. Man... How she was good in it. I didn't even know her personally then... I didn't even know how I actually know her. But in secondary school, everybody knew everybody somehow.

She "pestered" till I was nearly 15. When church first moved to JW, I finally went. But on the first day, I went ALONE cos I couldn't find CAI!!! (And I didn't have a HP then...) I was quite scared, I CRIED!!!! HAHA. 2 ushers escorted me to a seat in a corner.

New friend abandoned!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wahaha...

But that day was a very significant day in my life. That day changed my entire life, it was the turning point of my life. I experienced the most wonderful love of all.

Yes and all these years I've been avoiding a calling - to be a cgl. I'm actually thankful to a special person who awakened my soul. Not sure "special" is the most appropriate word to use though.

Yes so now I got my direction and I'm working towards it. Slowly but surely. Thanks to MC and KL for being so supportive and to Shing who gives me the opportunity to.

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So yes, this is roughly the plan and outlook of my life at this moment. Feel good to write them down. :)

 

9 months ago

During Jared + Jerb's wedding

 

Joseph + Emily's wedding

 

 

TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)
MC looks so cute hahaha... They are really awesome friends! LOVE'EM!!!!

 

Yes I must put this up!!! Cos I look mysteriously younger by a few years.  =X
(Purely a personal opinion, open to rebuttals)

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Practised cello earlier on... Some songs for Nov Asia Conference... It just made me feel bad. Though I've improved but so what... I'm still not "THERE" yet... I still can't play like "the rest"...

I'm not sure, is it a musician thing to always struggle with this thought? Or just me?

And I didn't feel like playing the piano this week... Cos I think I sounded terrible each time I tried to play... Sigh. This is bad.

I don't know what has gotten into me...

Am I striving for excellence or perfectionism? Or I actually can't play at all...

Maybe I just need some serious renewing of mind...

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WOW, MAMA MIA IS REALLY NICE!!!!!!!!!

I so felt like dancing in the middle of the show!!!!!!!! Hahahaha..

Don't mind watching it again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love everything about that show!!!!!!! The setting was gorgeous, the songs are great and PIERCE BROSNAN LOOKS PERFECT. Woo.

WOW...

I WANNA GET THE SOUNDTRACK CD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I so love the songs I hummed them all the way home (so me right?). Just 5 mins walk actually hahaha.

And yes I went to watch it ALONE. Cos I felt like watching a movie at 8+ pm and so I walked across the street and bought a ticket Haha. I'm that random.

I think I've mastered the art of self-entertaining... Lol... Cool.

It's over 2am, still wide awake trying to study a little bit more. Not that I'm hardworking :) but rather I feel guilty not studying much the entire day haha.

I know someone doesn't like me staying up late... Hmmm...

Anyway, reason why I didn't study as much as I wanted to was cos I spent my day cleaning and fixing some stuff at my kor's new house. It's some little things I can help out in since I can't really bless him as much as I want to financially... Hehe.

So I offered him my sweat and caused him some blood instead as some tools flew off my hands and hit him TWICE hahaha. =x

We went to Ikea @ Tampines!!! It was my first time there and it's HUGE!!! WOW. Sorry to sound so sua gu!!! I was clearly taken aback. Haha.

I know someone likes to go Ikea too...

It's really fun tidying up new houses Hehe.

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Strangely and unknowingly, I've lost a good 3-4 kg in less than 2 months. I weighed myself for over 10 times cos I couldn't believe it. HAHA. And to think I ate more than usual junk recently... Life is unfair? Lol...

The best reason I can think of is the loss of muscle mass. Or my stubborn BABY fats just suddenly decided to leave me for good. Waha...

Just in time for kor's wedding next week hahaha..

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I realised my mistakes, I was ignorant and oblivious. Hmmm, oblivious sounds like merely an easy excuse to get away from something. MC said I was insensitive. I guess that is a better word to describe.

Yes I was. And probably selfish too. I guess it's too late to apologise.

I'm sorry...

Quite hesistant to put this up but thought it's an interesting song to share. My piano teacher wanted me to record it down too... She's quite cute haha.

Bach - Invention No. 8 in F Major

A few mistakes here and there... Hmmm should have bring out my left hand part more, it's kinda hidden... So try to pay attention to (ie, strain your ears to hear) the left hand part too. It's mainly an echo of the right hand...

The "kok kok" knocking sound that is dispersed throughout the entire song is quite irritating. It's actually my fingernails hitting against the keyboard. Lol.

I think I quite let Bach down... Anyway all comments are welcome... :)

YES! Today's last day of school. Having recess week next week. =) Not that I don't enjoy going to school... It's just that I'd love a break too. Hehe.

Quite frustrated with myself recently partly cos my cello and piano skills are still not very good. And also other things which I didn't see for myself. But yes I'm thankful that God opened my eyes to a lot of things previously unseen.

Quite happy with myself too, cos my cello has improved hehe. But I feel I'm taking forever. The open secret is to never give up. ;)

Had an open door for me to perform in a quartet again! So fun. It'll be end of year and the $ we earn will help fund NUSSO.

I realised my writing has become increasingly fragmented. Might as well write in POINT-FORM??? Hahaha.

Anyway, just some senseless gibber...

Just did some self-reflection and I found that I've done many wrong things... Probably have hurt someone a lot even without me knowing...

Guess I knew it a tad too late... Sometimes we do not have the luxury of time to realize some things before it's too late.

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"Show me how to live
Teach me how to pray
Let all I THINK and SAY please You Lord..."

At this very present moment, I feel like packing my bag and go away with my piano and cello.

Then again, I'd make a coward out of myself. We like to walk away from problems. If people = problems, then you can substitute "people" into my previous sentence.

Hope it makes sense? :)

If not, it's ok too. Many things don't make sense anyway...

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Best thing that happened today was... My piano teacher taught me for an extra 15 MINUTES. To be calculative, that's $11+ FOC hahaha...

(^;^)v

More than that, it's really a pure pleasure to attend piano lessons... The victorious feeling of conquering a piece which you've been struggling with, or simply just outdoing yourself each time you play, can make you super happy. At least for me... =P

This is what I call "self-entertainment". Hahaha.

Hope to get at least a Diploma in piano next time... Maybe in 4-5 years? *shrug* Seems far...

Had Anatomy lab today. We had to go into the Anatomy Hall again, one which is filled with the smell of Formalin. I quite hate that smell, it makes me nauseous.

Today was slightly different, we get to TOUCH a cadaver and various body parts. Everything felt rubbery.

I guess we have already gotten over seeing whatever there is in the human body. Felt indifferent when I ate chicken rice after that hehe.

Stayed back in school to finish up some stuff, felt quite accomplished haha. Took a train back and I COULDN'T HELP but to think that this man I saw look like one of the cadavers... And I COULDN'T HELP but to imagine further... *Sigh* Study hazard???

I seriously hope and pray that I won't get a nightmare like before... It was too scary I woke up. For someone who sleeps like a LOG, it takes a really scary nightmare to wake me up...

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Anyway, today was a real interesting day. We discussed about the controversial topic of "ABORTION" during tutorial.

Did you know that...

- A pregnant woman, REGARDLESS of age, have full rights to make a decision as to what she wants to do with the fetus? That is, If I'm a 14 year-old who is pregnant, I can choose to abort it WITHOUT requiring anyone's consent. All information will be kept CONFIDENTIAL at the end of the day.

- However, if I'm a 20.5 year old and I want to just remove a stubborn MOLE, I'd need my PARENTS' consent. (We only have full rights at the age of 21.)

Do you see the irony here?

In fact, Singapore is way too liberal with our abortion laws. Can check the validity of the above points.

Abortion is a very simple thing to do. Chop chop done. The cost is not a problem too.

It's a highly debatable subject... Which is too much of a hassle to talk about it here... But think about it. :)

The LORD is my strength and my shield;My heart trusted in Him, and I am helped; Therefore my heart greatly rejoices, And with my song I will praise Him.

Psalm 28:7

Sometimes in my own quiet time with God, a song will just randomly spring out of me. Then I will get excited and save the lyrics in my handphone and I will start singing the new song to God and feel super happy about it. Hahaha.

Or I'll write lyrics without melody, just for fun. Hehe.

You can try too. :)

Though the popularly/"commercially" sung songs are nice but it's also good to give God something totally from our within...

Doesn't matter if the lyrics don't rhyme or the melody is out or we sing out of tune (All the above referred to myself Lol...), as long as it's from our heart, I think God will be touched... :)

(^;^)v

Paid my piano fee today and reality struck me that I can't survive on the allowance my dad gives me. Was thinking of giving tuition to sec school students instead of primary school cos the value is higher with the same amount of time spent...

My plan is to take Grade6 theory and practical next year.

And my dream is to be able to perform on the piano one fine day... Whenever that is... 5, 10, 20 years? Just gotta fulfill that dream by hook or by crook haha. Before I die.

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Met up with my kor for dinner today. He's getting married next month! I think I'm more excited than him hahaha. Cos I'm gonna be a bridesmaid. It's quite a shy thing... lol. But I think it'll be fun =P

It's really quite scary how much he knows me... He saw me grew up from a xiao mei mei in sec school till now... So he pretty much knows the way I think and my character.

Anyway, I'm a person who doesn't like to beat around the bush. I don't like indecisiveness. In fact I quite hate it. Like for goodness' sake please make up your/my mind. -_- It's especially a big turn off for me if a guy is indecisive. =X

No po ma-ness cos that's so gu niang.

Know what you want and go for it. When you get it, don't look back. :)

Having said those, I'm quite strict on myself in this aspect too... I don't like myself to be indecisive too...

But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. For let not that man suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.
James 1:6-8

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Anyway... Things are starting to get really interesting... Hehe.

Hello Cello Pros

 

I suspect that someone is secretly praying for me... Cos I don't know why I'm feeling (nearly) on top of the world recently haha.

School's really fun, it's just NOT ME to keep gushing about school and getting all excited... Lol. I suspect something is wrong with me...

Anyway, went for sectional prac ytd... 6 of us were there. 5 were pros except me! So it was really stressful. PROs as in really PROS...

I spoke to a Chinese guy beside me and asked him how long has he played the Cello... Cos he played very impressively... He told me 15 YEARS. That's like 5/7 of my life. So I felt better that I couldn't play well enough.

Another Ang Moh girl was very good as well, she has been playing over 10 years too. 

My sectional leader's been playing for 8 years.

And ME??? 1-2 years. And it's not like I really practised... I probably really only play for maybe less than 1 year... So it took a lot of courage out of me to just attend practices...

Supposed to have a performance next wed @ the national library. However, the pieces are too difficult for me so I'm gonna give it a miss. My plan is to learn from my SL/tutor after the perf.

Ok finished ranting.

The Complicated Heart

 

Had Anatomy lecture today and it was all about the HEART.

It was one of the driest lectures ever. I got frustrated at some point cos we were bombarded with so many alien words at one go and we couldn't quite figure out what the lecturer was saying sometimes due to his strong Indian accent.

But I must admit he really knows his stuff... At the back of his hand! The way he regurgitated was kinda amusing but of course didn't make much sense to us. The entire lecture hall woke up when he told us that he used to be a heart surgeon... Lol...

Sigh... The heart is so complicated. Seems like almost every centimeter of the heart has a name... And we are supposed to know the names and where they are located...

=(

To think that I even have problems remembering my classmates' names...

Anyway... I'm still pretty amazed by how the heart can function independently from the brain. That is, the brain needs the heart to function but not vice versa.

I think my heart certainly contains much more stuff which the lecturer hasn't found out. Haha funny...

 

*God is the strength of my heart.*

Some decisions make us the bad guy, but they are important decisions that HAVE to be made for the good of both parties in the long run.

What goes around comes around? I have understood that. 

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Anyway, it's my 4th week in school already. From what I have gathered so far, the hospital is really a BIG drama centre. It's where life and death exist side by side. It's also a favourite place to commit suicide.

Ya.

Can I handle it?

Really wanna live up to my name and be a BEARER OF LIGHT in a world of darkness.

It's pretty amusing how we can surprise ourselves sometimes by the things we do. It's like "Oh, I didn't know I could do that!". Haha and for a moment you are quite proud of yourself and will probably try to give yourself a pat on your own back (secretly at home?). Lol...

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It's Sunday night.

Hmmm....

Feeling kinda funny...

Off for a jog...

Today I understood a few things.

1) Meaning of "A Calling".

It's simply a voice in you calling out to you to do something. It's a naggy voice which will continue to bug you until you address it.

That's a calling.

And then I remembered. Something has been calling out to me for YEARS. I always ignore it because it will definitely change me, my lifestyle and all. I wasn't sure if I'm up to it...

But now I am ready to face it.

 

2) Leukemia

Recently someone quite close to me told me he used to have Leukemia when he was young. I knew about that long ago though. He's healthy and ok now.

Then,  I didn't have a good understanding of what Leukemia was all about. Coincidentally, today's lecture was about Blood and Leukemia was mentioned.

It's a blood cancer where the white blood cell (WBC) grows out of control. Those WBCs are not functional and displace the remaining healthy ones. This causes a weak immune system which can lead to many diseases.

(Edited from lecture notes)

I also learnt that if the cancer cells are still intact, it's still curable. But if it has spread into the bloodstream and other parts of the body, then it can only be controlled and not cured...

Can check up on the validity of these points...

Then again, it leads me to think back on Leukemia. It's a BLOOD cancer, meaning the cancerous WBCs are already all over the body.

I thought of my friend. Truly it was a miracle for him. And I really don't wanna think too deep into that.

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Chatted up with a Medical student last week. He told me he wanna be an Oncologist.. There was so much surety and confidence in his words, it kinda warmed my heart. I love to be around people who are passionate in what they are doing. There is just a certain attractiveness in them.

On the other hand, people who find everything so sian can really drain away my energy... I normally avoid them...

I'm really loving school Haha. I look forward to going to school every morning even if it means I have to wake up at 6.30am almost every day.

That's quite a big statement considering I'm not/never a morning person. =X

I always stand by this:

Do what you love and love what you do.

Of course it's easy to do what we love. However, we don't always love what we do. Actually, we can reverse that, just gotta find JOY in everything we do then we'll start loving it.

Does it make sense? :)

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Oh btw, I mentioned that the last sense to stop functioning is the sense of hearing.

In my personal opinion... The FIRST sense to stop functioning is probably our COMMON sense. It may sound quite funny, but think about it. :)

Turn your eyes unto Jesus
Look full in His wonderful face
And the things of the world will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace.

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But as it is written: “ Eye has not seen, nor ear heard,
Nor have entered into the heart of man
The things which God has prepared for those who love Him.”

1 Corinthians 2:9

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There are a lot of things which I do not understand. I probably don't have to and probably never will. There's probably a price to pay for being simple-minded.

Come to think of it, there's a price to pay for everything.

A lot of people simply can't appreciate simplicity. I can't understand why again. They love complicating things, that probably give them some kicks and perks in their otherwise boring lives.

Give a literal example, in the medical field, some weirdos came up with bombastic names for every part of the body as if Biology is not complicated enough... They really don't like to use layman terms like windpipe, gullet, arm and so on... And then they realised it's making things real difficult. They decided to reduce them to abbreviations.

And now we need to remember BOTH.

 

I digressed! It's probably a lousy example anyway. :)

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Off for a walk...

I'm totally loving school! It's been 2 weeks and it's fun thus far. Haha. Still need a little getting-used-to though.

I really love Biology and learning things about our own bodies. That makes it easier I guess... I come to realise that the human body is SO complex YET so systematic. In the complexity, all functions in the body are still carried out neatly and orderly..

That truly amazes me.
That truly is not by chance but very well-planned.

By the way, some fun facts.
By far, there has been NO record of any heart cancer. (But lots of records of broken hearts.)

And the last sense to stop functioning is the sense of HEARING. So even though a person may be in coma or at the very last moment of life, he can still hear you. It's amazing. So continue to talk to and pray for that person if situations like that arise.

Just a casual question. Is it better to die with regrets or live with regrets?

What do you regret not doing?

 

*God never fails to amaze me.*

 

ATTENTION!!!

Can anyone sponsor me...

1) A handphone
2) A printer
3) A laptop

?????????????????????????

Please? =)

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Went for my first nus orchestra rehearsal today, I was totally taken aback by...

1) The size of the orchestra. There were already 12 cellists, so imagine the total number of people...

2) The standard of the orchestra. We played 2 pieces by Rossini. It's MADNESS to the max. The same kind of feeling came back when I first joined chc orchestra... Hmm...

3) The pro-ness of the cellists... Except me. Sigh... Whined to my cello teacher and he really encouraged and talked sense into me... Thou shall persevere no matter what.

 

It's a very big challenge for me, but since I'm in it now, there's no turning back. Must improve even more now... It's quite mentally distressing but it's really an honour for me to be able to play in this orchestra...

Oh btw, I was pleasantly surprised to see my JC MATHS TEACHER playing in the orchestra too!!! (Thank God I remembered his name...) He came back as an alumni... To think that we used to make fun of him... =X

Orchestra is where people from ALL walks of life come together as one, with the same heartbeat, playing the same song. It really doesn't matter who you are or what you do.

It makes us forget about life for a while...

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The world is our stage and life is a big drama...

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Last week - It passed real fast.

Yesterday - Had an orchestra cum choir performance @ St Andrew's Cathedral, at their new 'underground' church. It was great I think. Sat beside a SSO violist whose teacher was my NUS symphony orchestra conductor who was also my cello teacher's conductor before in SNYO. The music circle is really small in sg...

Today - Went for morning prayer meeting @ JW, saw Matt and we had breakfast together after that with his cg member. Out of the blue while we were eating, her hp rang and it was her grandpa calling from Indonesia with the news that her MUM has passed on. My heart broke for her.

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... with unpredictable  twists and turns...

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Matt drove me to school in his new car! It was really cool. He installed something which can allow him to listen to songs from his iPod in his car. Is this device common? Or am I not updated? Hahaha. 

Met Cai after school @ Orchard. At the end of the day, I LOST MY HANDPHONE. She was quite surprised that I was so calm haha. I mean... There's nothing to make a big fuss over since it's already gone.

So, my apologies for any inconvenience caused while trying to reach me, have to go into the MIA mode for a while. In the meantime, you can contact me via email or MSN. I'll try to settle everything in 3 days' time.

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... But the show still goes on.

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 I pray You'll be our eyes, and watch us where we go.
And help us to be wise in times when we don't know.
Let this be our prayer, when we lose our way.
Lead us to a place, guide us with Your grace
To a place where we'll be safe.

I pray we'll find Your light,
And hold it in our hearts
When stars go out each night,
Remind us where You are...

Let this be our prayer
When shadows fill our day
Guide us with Your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe.

 

Andrea Bocelli - The Prayer

 

Did CPR today, it was kinda physically demanding. Anyway I did something in school today... I'm such a wimp sometimes.

Visited the Anatomy Hall in school ytd, the entire room was filled with an overwhelming smell of formalin. Saw a few cadavers, some dried up and some whole ones.

Went up to the Anatomy Museum after that and saw almost all the body parts, inside out. I know more about me and you now. 

Made my stomach churned while eating my chicken chop right after that.

Week 1 of school is over. It's kinda fun so far.

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Had piano lesson just now... I played quite badly. Anyway, my teacher thought that my exam result was 'so low'. So I shouldn't be too happy about it actually haha. But well... I didn't expect that since I screwed up so I feel happy about it.

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Anyway......

 

Today must have been a really special happy day!!!!!

1) Went for NUS symphony orchestra audition today and I got in!!! YESSSSS!!! That means FREE CELLO LESSONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Really need to improve cos I've been stagnant for quite long and my rate of progression is at snail pace.

But that also means I can't attend the church rehearsals cos it clashes. Good also, if not it's quite shiong.

 

2) ---

3) Came home and saw that my piano exam result has been sent to my house!!! And PRAISE THE LORD I got a MERIT!!!!!!!!!! It's really a surprise considering how much I screwed up the whole exam and had to whine to Marilyn for more than half an hour on the phone. =X

After getting my cert, it also means that I'd have to PAY more for my lessons next month onwards as my grade increases. Gosh...

 

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Therefore, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.
1 Corinthians 10:31

Amen.

 

Today's the official start of school term. Schooling is fun when you have fun friends around. And it took away some stuff on my mind for a while...

Had Physiology lecture early in the morning, it was kind of like a recap of the cell membrane. The lecture group consisted of people from Nursing, Dentistry and Pharmacy so it's quite a big group.

Will be having Anatomy lecture tmr. Looking forward haha. I love Biology and Nursing is mainly about Bio.

CONTRARY to popular belief, nursing is more than just cleaning sheets and clearing "something which sounds similar". That's a downright stereotype and it just shows total ignorance.

My dad has been very curious why they even came up with a Nursing degree. Reason is, people's demand has increased drastically. 20 years ago, it used to be 1 nurse : 20 SICK people. Now it's almost 1:1 and still the nurses don't even have time to finish their stuff.

People want to KNOW the reason behind everything. What injection are you giving them, why this and why that. "They don't sleep when you ask them to and they don't eat what you give them." =x Quoted from a lecturer.

So IF you ever have to go to the hospital, please be nice to the nurses. :)

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People have been telling me that I have a "mass comm" look. Haha. And wondered why the ..... did I take up nursing.

Hmmm.... I will say when I am officially a nurse. :) Guess it's not something I will do for the sake of doing... But it's still too early to say.

Btw, I passed my First Aid theory test haha. Able to move on to practical this friday.

Trick is to just give the theorically correct answers. Though it may seem silly in real life. Haha.

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Watched the Olympics after school, a bit of weightlifting, swimming and badminton.

Badminton was Indonesia vs Thailand. Though I like the Indonesians, I supported the Thailand guy!!! Cos he looked more humble and he was at the losing side. Haha.

Thank goodness no one was home cos I went "awwwwww..." "Oh man..........." "Oh NOoo................" whenever the Thai guy made some avoidable errors hahaha. =x

Quite stupid.

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I think I just screwed up something.

 

Happy National Day.

Last night's Beijing Olympics Opening was a BLAST. I was totally awe-stricken and captivated by the creativity, grandiosity and the pride of the Chinese towards their country... 

Think it shook the world.

I love the Olympics! All thanks to the Greeks! I love the sportsmen. The Olympics is a stark display of the manifestation of the human will.

It gives me goosebumps and a slight adrenaline rush just watching them.

Don't miss the action!

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Back to National Day, our strength is certainly incomparable to China's, thus we probably can't produce the same impact. However, there is no excuse not to be proud of SINGAPORE.

Sadly, what we see here is worse than not being proud of SG. We have seen and/or experienced people jeering at those who are/wanting to be patriotic.

Ok, I'm guilty of that. =P

So I asked myself why. And I couldn't find an answer. :) It just seems funny to suddenly love SG so much just for ONE day.

What do you think?

 

 

Group of friends I hang out with in nus. Haha the pic is a bit small...

Emma n I

Pizza heart! :)

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Lord of my life
I love you
Lord of my days
I trust in You

Living beneath the shelter of Your wings
My heart's safe...

- CCC "Secret Place"

 

Oh Shucks. I failed my very first test. We need 16/20 to pass and the thing is we don't even know how well (or in my case, how badly) we did. Maybe I got 15??? Ha. We don't know what are our mistakes too.

That's annoying.

Maybe I think too much...

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I have a casual thought to just...

Hmmm.....

 

Whatever.

 

School's been fun so far. We started off with the basic First Aid course which everyone in the medical field must know. Most of our lecturers are doctors and (surprisingly) they are very funny lol. We were all amused and captivated by the stories they told us.

We learnt that "common sense is not common" and that if we don't know what to do in an emergency, we should just give oxygen. =X

And much more...

One of the lecturers slipped out this "I have no bleeding idea." Hahaha.
Doc talk. 

1/2 hour test tmr and then next week will be the 'official' start of school.

I looked at my timetable and I went hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.... :)

-

 

One thing I hate, that is, to prove myself.

I'm the take-it-or-leave-it kinda person. I don't like having to convince people... I don't like to repeat myself...

Maybe I'm often misunderstood?

I don't know...

I can be alone by myself, totally quiet and PERFECTLY fine.

Seems like people just can't take that in...

I don't know why.

I don't understand the need to keep talking anyway. It gets really noisy.

Maybe it's just me.

People become like everyone else in order to fit in. Fit into what?

For what? 

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School's starting from today. Feel like I'm entering a battlefield, with shackles on my feet. Am I prepared, am I geared?

I wouldn't know until the battle begins.

However I do know that the last thing I wanna do is to fuss over unnecessary things...

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Sometimes I wish people can stop bothering me. Just sometimes.

I think that's just a fantasy...

So don't bother me.

The Narrow Way

 

When faced with a problem, the easiest thing to do is to... walk away.

And that's probably the laziest and the silliest thing to do.

That's why it's so difficult to walk the narrow way. We do not have the 'luxury' to walk away... The narrow way is the only way, a one-way street.

To choose the narrow way is to choose to overcome every obstacle, to climb every mountain and to go through every valley that is along the way.

(Kinda reminded me about Super Mario game... =P)

“Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.
Matthew 7:13-14 

It is to choose to trust God even when it seems like we have arrived at a dead end.

God WILL make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He WILL make a way for me
- Don Moen "God Will Make A Way"

Amen!!!

A Day At Bukit Timah Hill

 

Went out with dear beloved CAI today!!! Since both of us were really free... We went to BUKIT TIMAH HILL, a place I've always wanted to go.

Setting off in a bus. She smuggled ROJAK up... =X

She typed a name in my HP and secretly passed it to me. We burst out laughing lol...

Her diving friend (who later became our photographer) and her at the foot of the hill

Blowing a mega Lalang Haha

We saw a CAVE!!! We were wondering if Mas Selamat was hiding somewhere there...

We saw a little stream too. Cai wants to go there for a drink next time...

2 Hearts :) Happy 7th Month Dear Da!

We strayed off into the catchment area... Nice peaceful place...

Nice! Cai and Mark

Hei Bai Pei! FRIENDS FOREVER! =P

 

Cai and I ate the same food-BRIYANI!  Briyani rocks!

 Red shirt, red tongue, red drink and red food.

Haha fun fun...

(^;^)v

 

Went to NUS to register myself. Met some of my faculty mates haha they are really nice people. By the way, my faculty has only 75 people, out of that only 6 males haha. All the best to them!

NUS is really a vibrant school with lots of activities, so I really gotta get my focus right...

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Met up with Jeff and Matthew for a buffet dinner. Jeff is getting married in 2 months! So excited for him and myself cos I'm gonna be his bridesmaid hahaha... He said I should start to slim down NOW...

Lol...

Will consider...

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Am really happy recently for no particular reason! I think it's the joy of the Lord! Thank God for conquering this battle with me. Feel so free now! I really can't contain the joy!!! So please bear with me!!!!

hahahaha.

 

 

 

Went to Sentosa alone to chill. There were a lot of peacocks hanging around and one white peacock caught my attention. Haha. Never seen such a thing before, is it rare or what?

Met up with Bird for dinner at Kimgary @ Vivo (the name is just weird la) and ELGIN sneaked up and BOOM-ed me!!!

*I screamed @ Vivo on 28 July 2008*

Hahahaha...

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Elgin dear and I

Early on a Sunday morning at 8 o'clock @ Expo! Proud to be the Top 3 to reach! Hahaha...

Anyway, performance was over... Learnt quite a bit. Hope the audience enjoyed. =P

 

With Alvano Sancheg!! - the harpist and guitarist

He sat in and watched our orchestra rehearsal last night, so we grabbed the chance to take photos with him hahaha...

That was our last rehearsal, will be performing this weekend @ both JW and Expo. So all of us have to travel to and fro the far east and the wild west.

Literally having a performance marathon. Hahaha... Should be fun.

Marilyn won't be playing with us this time, so there'll only be me and Elgin for the cello section. Hope my cello teacher can play on Sunday @ Expo.

Must recruit more cellists!!!
Anyone interested???

Anyway, stay tuned! =P

 

Went for the NUS/NTU camp, but didn't stay overnight cos I feel unsettled in some things. Sorting out my life now, making sure the start of uni will be good.

Won't be going for my own nus camp too cos i registered late? Haha. Really happy man. I mean, we can make friends anytime, but some things have to be dealt with right there and then.

For as long as the battle goes on, I will keep fighting on... I can sense I'm slowly winning the battle already. But I won't be satisfied until I feel I have completely claimed the victory.

However, IT will not be happy too and will wanna revenge!!!!!! Too bad la. I'd say BRING IT ON!!!

PERSEVEREEEE....

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My world is changing...
I'm rearranging...

- Faith Hill "Where Are You Christmas"

 

Phew.

Spent my day @ Sentosa with my sub-zone. It was fun. Especially the volleyball! Don't know when's the next time I'll be playing again though...

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Had a quartet performance last night @ JW church and we played "CANON IN D" (Everybody's favourite classical piece, esp KaiLin =P) My very first quartet performance and it was fun.

During rehearsals we had difficulty synchronizing all the parts and it sounded very messy. Right up to soundcheck shortly before performing. Thank God that during performance all of us were in time with one another and we performed our best one.

It's a miracle I think. Cos most of the time performance on stage is only around 60-80% of our best during rehearsals. I think. Really thank God for that man.

Me, En Ling, Charmaine + Samuel

Cranking up before perf. Lol... One of the many pics...

"Can I take a picture with your violin???"

"Nonono... Your fingers shouldn't be like that..." Lol...

Take 5. Act pro... Lol...

Wahaha... I still don't really like violins cos it's too high pitched and it has an awkward playing position haha...

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Next few days will be shiong...

Must chiong!!!

 

"When you tried your best and you don't succeed..."
- Coldplay "Fix You"

Kinda screwed up my piano exam. Was hoping that my fingers wouldn't be cold and shaky, yet it was warm and limp... Haa... Kinda disappointed with my performance cos I did my best at that moment, but still it wasn't my best standard. Probably even below my average.

Results will only be out in a few months. Meanwhile, I'm really looking forward to playing OTHER repertoires...

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"When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep..."
- Coldplay "Fix You"

Had a long day ytd and thought I could have a nice rest at night. I ended up tossing on my bed for 3 EXCRUCIATING HOURS until 6 plus in this morning. My mind and body couldn't coordinate again.

Thank God that my sms woke my mum up and we ended talking from 330-430. Don't know why both parents like to talk so much. Haha.

Another reason why I couldn't sleep - I couldn't sleep in my favourite position! Had an injection ytd to boost my antibodies against Hep B. Had drawn some blood last week for Hep B testing and they discovered I don't have enough antibodies. This means that I'm more susceptible to contracting Hep B.

It was so freaking painful, resulting in my whole left arm feeling weak and sore. The nurse wasn't exactly friendly, just like the typical old, grumpy nurses you often encounter. (Sorry for the stereotype.)

Sometimes I feel they should really get some life outside... Breathe some fresher air... Brighten up their lives a little...

The poor patients have to first pluck up their courage and submit themselves under total control of a stranger, that takes a lot of FAITH... And some people are just freaking scared of needles and blood, but those nurses who think that they have been through SO MUCH over the years, just scoff at those patients for being freaking scared and they get GRUMPY and IMPATIENT, thus instill in the patients some more unnecessary phobia over the years.

Nevermind, please forgive them!!!!!

The next generation WILL arise and stand in the gap!!!!!!!

Testing...

 

Trying out Blogger's video...

This song is titled "Final Fantasy X", one I recorded 2 years ago... I know it's very dark but I thought it suits the nonchalant feeling it induces.

Enjoy~

 

Piano exam's in 3 DAYS. I'm really sick of playing the exam pieces and scales.

Went to check out my exam venue @ Young Musicians' Society yesterday, and I LOST my way while trying to locate it. Haha... Realised it's actually so near NAFA la.

Tiny building

Entrance to my exam room... Doesn't look inviting at all, wonder what's behind that closed door.

Booked a studio there to practise on the piano. Marilyn came down to help me and taught me how I can improve.

Thanks!

We had a good laugh over my 3rd piece which sounds... Funny. It's a song without melody... Which I just have to bang on some repetitive notes... Haha...

Hope that my hands won't shake like jelly on that day. Hehe.

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In all persistency to break forth
Across dry plains and even up north
Every stream will face an end
Rejoice, for there the fun begins.

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So now I'm confirmed going to study NURSING in NUS. While some disapprove of that, others support me and a MINORITY fears for the worst. *Evil Grin*

Haha, whatever it is, I don't really care. I'm really excited about starting school, and even more excited about the attachment after every semester.

USED TO want to be a DOCTOR but somehow had forgotten about that thought as years went by. Why doctor??? Cos I've always dream about working in an OPERATING THREATRE. Hope I'm one step nearer to that dream now. Hehe...

Also hope that some day, I can help the casualties in disastrous regions of Asia.

I love the unpredictability of the job, the satisfaction of seeing people recovering, to be able to help those who can't help themselves and most importantly to spread the love of God and to SHINE His light in a world of darkness.

That's why I am taking Nursing. (By faith...)

And stop calling me MISSY. (Only close friends can... Hahaha)

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Loving each other for 192 days.     

  (^;^)v                                       

 

Woo hoo~ Ytd marked my last day at AIA. It's bittersweet actually. I know I'd miss SOME of my colleagues cos they are the most fun/funniest people to work with. Hahahahaha. It's been a great joy working there under a great boss.

And I'd also miss SOME of the food there... Hahahaha.

Farewell lunch @ Guild House @ NUS
From left: Person taking over me, me, my boss, boss' manager (cum son Lol), his PA AMANDA cum buddy buddy.

Please be friendly to the agents the next time they approach you!!!!!!!!! Especially those from AIA!!!! They are only trying to help you!! :)

  Orchestra rehearsal was quite fun tonight.

1) I've improved! (Or so I thought)
2) Choir combined with us for "Hallelujah Chorus"
3) Played through the song we're performing for next week and it sounded twice better than last week's.
4) SOFI WAS THERE!!!

But

1) Attendance was still bad
2) I was the only cellist and so was overwhelmed by the rest.
3) I started "Hallelujah Chorus" wrongly and Eric stared at me.

Haha, main point is, SOFI WAS THERE!!! =)

Met her up for dinner prior rehearsal and we ate the SAME food and drank the SAME drink! Hee... Good taste man. (Pun intended) 

 

We love to self-entertain and disturb other commuters in the bus. Lol...

She's great pianist!!! My inspiration for piano. She'll will be playing the keyboard together with the orchestra, so WATCH OUT FOR HER!!!

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Will be having piano exam in less than 2 weeks. But I still can't play those pieces perfectly... Or at least the way I want it. Tsk. And I haven't felt the urgency to practise hard.

*shrug* Sian...

Can't wait for exam! Cos I can't wait to get over it.

 

I have a sudden urge to speed a (motor)bike down the road.

A casual thought of getting a tattoo.

A desire to pack my bag and leave this country right now.

Sometimes my spontaneity amazes me. Sometimes it makes me feel irresponsible.

But almost every time, I love it.

 

I'll be free in the month of JULY. SO ASK ME OUT!!!!!!!!! Anywhere!!!

I need a getaway urgently. Lest I'd be suffocated.